emily;

Daylight savings *sighs* summer is here, and I'm cooped inside my house for 11 more days. I can't believe we're more that half way through :). It's a grand feeling.

To Jimmi : I'm sorry I haven't called. My Net phone is a piece of *beep* (lol) and cramming for bio is harder than I thought. Thankyou so much for you uplifting messages. You're sluxy.

I ended up sleeping at 5am this morning and waking up at 1pm. Pretty bad. huh? Trying to sleep when the sun is about to rise is pretty tough. All these birds keep chirping away outside like there's no tomorrow. I have to admit, I actually like the dark, when it comes to sleeping. Anyway, I love 'Almost Famous' - yeah, that movie with Kate Husdon in it. You know? The rocknroll movie? YEAH. THAT ONE. God, it makes me lol and revitalise my love for music all at once. <3 All hail Miss Penny Lane. (and that journalist kid. I always forget his name)

Penny Lane: "I always tell my girls to never take it seriously. If you don't take it seriously, you always have fun. If you always have fun, you never get hurt. And if you ever get lonely, you just go down to the records store, and see your friends."
Amen to that.

I should study.

Navigator Sally - over and out.


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jimmi;

If you cant chill out then calm down muthafuckas! =)
HSC does not determine our life...crack and weed do!

So if your really want to get out of this Higher School Certificate hell hole,
You have to focus,
You got to stop bitching about your lack of study,
And you have to learn...How to dance or sing
Cause you trapped niggah! YOU TRAPPED!

Hahaha im just kidding, but seriously don't think about it.
Cause in like 3 weeks we will be like fuck the HSC cause its over, GOD DAMN!
Bout time!
Just keep it real homies!
Good luck and all that other bullshit,

Im going to chill with my monkey <3


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emily;

hmmm ... yes, English Paper 2 is tomorrow. How delightful. As to Jimmi's above advice of "chilling out", I can't quite flow into that pool of thinking.
I thought the language analysis part of Paper 1 was absolutely gay, and my creative was rushed. Plus, I'm not even sure if my essay answered the question properly. *sighs*
That's a goodbye to english that was once my forte.

But everyone's been right. It's just a piece of paper.

Oh a brighter note, I got the job at Diva! Although, I didn't accept right away ... I'm supposed to call her back on monday. I just hope she doesn't give the job to someone else while I'm still confirming my availability. I NEED THE MONEY! Diva's not that bad ... hahaha I think I'm just saying that because Myer hasn't replied.

I'm so stupid. I left my phone in that box thing in the office before the exam, and forgot to take it home afterwards. NOOOO - never realised how dependent I am on technology. I need it! All those missed calls and unread messages ... gives me a heartache just by thinking about it. God, I'm so sad.

Goodluck to everyone for the rest of their exams :)

I should stop blogging.

<3


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jimmi;

To those that are stressing, tripping, krunking or binging.
Chill out.
Think too much into the future and you end up having a screwed up present.
So fuck the future!
Just do your thing and hopefully ill meet you on the otherside, with a pina colda =)

Yes i was bored so i thought id blog.


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emily;

I am such a USYD wannabe. I mean, seriously. How more pathetic can I get? I spend at least 7 hours there daily, AND everytime I walk in, all I do is stare at the beautiful buildings. haha, I think it will be heart-crushing indeed when I find out I won't be able to attend there. For the moment, I'll just dream.

Shit, I am so unprepared...

So let's see. What is there to blog about these days? Abosultely nothing. My life is so boring, that I'd be very surprised if anything remotely interesting happened within the next 2 seconds.
1 ... 2....
Nope, nothing happened. *sighs*

Shit, I am so unprepared...

I want to be enough. I don't think that quite makes sense, but it does to me. Everyone is finding someone, or knowing exactly who they want to be. I don't know/have any of this. And to keep myself satisfied with my lack of romance, I've resorted to watching Pride and Prejudice, or She's The Man, every 3 days or so. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. I should be elated. I've nearly reached the pinnacle of my adolescent life; soon to be embracing the "wide world". And yet, here I am, unable to study and unable to fill some stupid void.

Whatever, I'm so prepared for being unprepared.

Kiss me, beneath the milky twilight.
Leave me, out on the moonlight floor.
So, kiss me.

5 brownie points for whoever knows the origin of those lyrics. lol. :)


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forgiveness was not something that i was asking of you. it was more along the lines of acceptance or understanding, and considering how great our friendship was, i wasn't expecting any of those

you were there for me even after our "falling out" but i knew how hard that was for you to do but you had such grace at the moment, that it made me wonder how i could have even you up in the first place. however, it is far too late to turn back now and even if i could, i wouldn't because i know this broken friendship will resolve itself someday.
i never meant to betray you, or leave you behind, i had an ultimatum and i chose.
i know it's hard to know, or perhaps hard to believe but he really makes me happy.

your still someone i consider a friend, and happiness is all i wish upon you.
you told me yourself that conversations with me now leave you feeling unease and wierd and i don't blame you. so i left you alone and will continue to do so

james le, you are a funny, smart and great guy. you've never needed anyone to make you become the great guy that you are now, including me.
i'm not going to apologise again for what has to happen to us because i think you know how sorry i am, or at least i hope you do.

goodluck with your world james.


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jimmi;

Its been 3 weeks since I have last talked to you, but it feels like you have faded out altogether.
I have been trying to understand why, and up to now I am still perplexed about your decisions.
I admit, afterwards I subverted ill thought towards you.
Bitterness if you must, but today I came across Alexander Pope's: 'Essay on Criticism' and this particular quote caught my attention

"To err is human, to forgive divine"


So it got me thinking, everyone is capable of making mistakes, passing judgment, criticizing.
Yet who among us is able to forgive those who wronged them? Who is able forgo the transgressions inflicted upon them by others and give total redemption to those who ask for it?
But what does redemption mean?
Locke talked about being born with a Tabula Rasa, a blank slate, if we trespass against another it is on our slate. However does redemption really wipe our slate clean or do the guilt of our sins hang over our heads for the rest of our lives.

I don't know the answers for these pertinent questions, however it is clear that being able to forgive is a gift attributed to the divine.
With that at hand, I forgive you.
I'll be waiting around the bend, I hope to see you there some time.


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emily;



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emily;

oh dear, I really should be sleeping, but this song is making me feel so happy!
The One Thing - Paul Colman. "Only one thing doesn't change, only one thing stays the same. All I know is at the end of the day, your love remains." Woohhh, ultimate 2:00am song. Or, whatever.

Anyways! Tomorrow is Labour Day, how grand. And I am spending it studying my ass off at UTS library. Hopefully I won't have to pay too much to get in. I really should be sleeping.

I just uploaded all the photos from Graduation Day. Damnit, Thursday was bloody awesome. I really am going to miss Fort Street. I LOVE THIS PLACE - and I mean that in the most non-betraying way towards Sefton. Maybe it's because it's the place I'm graduating from, but I truly do love it. Everyone and everything in it. Down to the very last rot-infested science lab sink.

I thought the FLOP was pretty grand too. :)

Um um, what else. OH YES - I RAN AWAY FROM COPS FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. So proud :) ahhh okay, to make everything shorter, I just love Fort Street.

STFU HSC!

Urgh, my net is still capped. Will upload the piccies shortly. Maybe I should sign up for Facebook. Neh.


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emily;

Daylight savings *sighs* summer is here, and I'm cooped inside my house for 11 more days. I can't believe we're more that half way through :). It's a grand feeling.

To Jimmi : I'm sorry I haven't called. My Net phone is a piece of *beep* (lol) and cramming for bio is harder than I thought. Thankyou so much for you uplifting messages. You're sluxy.

I ended up sleeping at 5am this morning and waking up at 1pm. Pretty bad. huh? Trying to sleep when the sun is about to rise is pretty tough. All these birds keep chirping away outside like there's no tomorrow. I have to admit, I actually like the dark, when it comes to sleeping. Anyway, I love 'Almost Famous' - yeah, that movie with Kate Husdon in it. You know? The rocknroll movie? YEAH. THAT ONE. God, it makes me lol and revitalise my love for music all at once. <3 All hail Miss Penny Lane. (and that journalist kid. I always forget his name)

Penny Lane: "I always tell my girls to never take it seriously. If you don't take it seriously, you always have fun. If you always have fun, you never get hurt. And if you ever get lonely, you just go down to the records store, and see your friends."
Amen to that.

I should study.

Navigator Sally - over and out.

jimmi;

If you cant chill out then calm down muthafuckas! =)
HSC does not determine our life...crack and weed do!

So if your really want to get out of this Higher School Certificate hell hole,
You have to focus,
You got to stop bitching about your lack of study,
And you have to learn...How to dance or sing
Cause you trapped niggah! YOU TRAPPED!

Hahaha im just kidding, but seriously don't think about it.
Cause in like 3 weeks we will be like fuck the HSC cause its over, GOD DAMN!
Bout time!
Just keep it real homies!
Good luck and all that other bullshit,

Im going to chill with my monkey <3

emily;

hmmm ... yes, English Paper 2 is tomorrow. How delightful. As to Jimmi's above advice of "chilling out", I can't quite flow into that pool of thinking.
I thought the language analysis part of Paper 1 was absolutely gay, and my creative was rushed. Plus, I'm not even sure if my essay answered the question properly. *sighs*
That's a goodbye to english that was once my forte.

But everyone's been right. It's just a piece of paper.

Oh a brighter note, I got the job at Diva! Although, I didn't accept right away ... I'm supposed to call her back on monday. I just hope she doesn't give the job to someone else while I'm still confirming my availability. I NEED THE MONEY! Diva's not that bad ... hahaha I think I'm just saying that because Myer hasn't replied.

I'm so stupid. I left my phone in that box thing in the office before the exam, and forgot to take it home afterwards. NOOOO - never realised how dependent I am on technology. I need it! All those missed calls and unread messages ... gives me a heartache just by thinking about it. God, I'm so sad.

Goodluck to everyone for the rest of their exams :)

I should stop blogging.

<3

jimmi;

To those that are stressing, tripping, krunking or binging.
Chill out.
Think too much into the future and you end up having a screwed up present.
So fuck the future!
Just do your thing and hopefully ill meet you on the otherside, with a pina colda =)

Yes i was bored so i thought id blog.

emily;

I am such a USYD wannabe. I mean, seriously. How more pathetic can I get? I spend at least 7 hours there daily, AND everytime I walk in, all I do is stare at the beautiful buildings. haha, I think it will be heart-crushing indeed when I find out I won't be able to attend there. For the moment, I'll just dream.

Shit, I am so unprepared...

So let's see. What is there to blog about these days? Abosultely nothing. My life is so boring, that I'd be very surprised if anything remotely interesting happened within the next 2 seconds.
1 ... 2....
Nope, nothing happened. *sighs*

Shit, I am so unprepared...

I want to be enough. I don't think that quite makes sense, but it does to me. Everyone is finding someone, or knowing exactly who they want to be. I don't know/have any of this. And to keep myself satisfied with my lack of romance, I've resorted to watching Pride and Prejudice, or She's The Man, every 3 days or so. WHAT IS WRONG WITH ME. I should be elated. I've nearly reached the pinnacle of my adolescent life; soon to be embracing the "wide world". And yet, here I am, unable to study and unable to fill some stupid void.

Whatever, I'm so prepared for being unprepared.

Kiss me, beneath the milky twilight.
Leave me, out on the moonlight floor.
So, kiss me.

5 brownie points for whoever knows the origin of those lyrics. lol. :)

forgiveness was not something that i was asking of you. it was more along the lines of acceptance or understanding, and considering how great our friendship was, i wasn't expecting any of those

you were there for me even after our "falling out" but i knew how hard that was for you to do but you had such grace at the moment, that it made me wonder how i could have even you up in the first place. however, it is far too late to turn back now and even if i could, i wouldn't because i know this broken friendship will resolve itself someday.
i never meant to betray you, or leave you behind, i had an ultimatum and i chose.
i know it's hard to know, or perhaps hard to believe but he really makes me happy.

your still someone i consider a friend, and happiness is all i wish upon you.
you told me yourself that conversations with me now leave you feeling unease and wierd and i don't blame you. so i left you alone and will continue to do so

james le, you are a funny, smart and great guy. you've never needed anyone to make you become the great guy that you are now, including me.
i'm not going to apologise again for what has to happen to us because i think you know how sorry i am, or at least i hope you do.

goodluck with your world james.

jimmi;

Its been 3 weeks since I have last talked to you, but it feels like you have faded out altogether.
I have been trying to understand why, and up to now I am still perplexed about your decisions.
I admit, afterwards I subverted ill thought towards you.
Bitterness if you must, but today I came across Alexander Pope's: 'Essay on Criticism' and this particular quote caught my attention

"To err is human, to forgive divine"


So it got me thinking, everyone is capable of making mistakes, passing judgment, criticizing.
Yet who among us is able to forgive those who wronged them? Who is able forgo the transgressions inflicted upon them by others and give total redemption to those who ask for it?
But what does redemption mean?
Locke talked about being born with a Tabula Rasa, a blank slate, if we trespass against another it is on our slate. However does redemption really wipe our slate clean or do the guilt of our sins hang over our heads for the rest of our lives.

I don't know the answers for these pertinent questions, however it is clear that being able to forgive is a gift attributed to the divine.
With that at hand, I forgive you.
I'll be waiting around the bend, I hope to see you there some time.

emily;


emily;

oh dear, I really should be sleeping, but this song is making me feel so happy!
The One Thing - Paul Colman. "Only one thing doesn't change, only one thing stays the same. All I know is at the end of the day, your love remains." Woohhh, ultimate 2:00am song. Or, whatever.

Anyways! Tomorrow is Labour Day, how grand. And I am spending it studying my ass off at UTS library. Hopefully I won't have to pay too much to get in. I really should be sleeping.

I just uploaded all the photos from Graduation Day. Damnit, Thursday was bloody awesome. I really am going to miss Fort Street. I LOVE THIS PLACE - and I mean that in the most non-betraying way towards Sefton. Maybe it's because it's the place I'm graduating from, but I truly do love it. Everyone and everything in it. Down to the very last rot-infested science lab sink.

I thought the FLOP was pretty grand too. :)

Um um, what else. OH YES - I RAN AWAY FROM COPS FOR THE FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE. So proud :) ahhh okay, to make everything shorter, I just love Fort Street.

STFU HSC!

Urgh, my net is still capped. Will upload the piccies shortly. Maybe I should sign up for Facebook. Neh.