jimmi;

Fuck, I'm so confused.
I feel for you Craig, you didn't deserve this.
First Standen's dad, now yours? and maybe Ricks?
This is too messed up.
I hope you get through this man

RIP Mr Marks


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jimmi;

RUN FO FUN MOTHERFUCKERS!

I just went on my first run in like 2 months...and god damn it felt good.
Unfortunately it shows how unfit i am now, damn studying for trials!
Anyways looks like i have created a Rubick's cube sensation at school, i see all these little kids coming in with cubes, hahah!
Also i am having the habit of speaking my mind all the time, even when you don't want to.
For example last night i just finished 2 hours of English study and my mum comes in.

Mum: Why arent you studying James, HSC is only in a couple of months.
Me thinking: OMG she cant be serious, i just fucking studied.
Me speaking: Why aren't you in the kitchen?
Me thinking: HOLY CRAP, i did not just say that, damn it Aaron! you and your sexist remarks.
Mum: What did you just say?
Me thinking: SAVE, SAVE!
Me speaking: Um, can you get me a drink from the kitchen?
Mum: hmm ok... (leaves)
Me speaking: Phew...

Peace out


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emily;

So so bored. Everything seems to just slide from one end to the other, with no significant events taking place in between. It's like watching one of those rulers slide to and fro on a see-saw. Wait, that's not a very everyday image, is it?

I guess the highlight of last week was seeing Leslie, Jam, Leewee, Nat, Jimmi & a whole lot of other familiar faces at USYD Open Day. :) I love yous. You make my heart go doomph doomph!

I'm trying to be normal around you, but it's proving extremely difficult. I don't know why, cause it shouldn't be. I end up either avoiding you excessively by trying too hard to make it the same as it was before, or just being downright nasty. Eh, I'm fed up with worrying. I'm just going to float around school like I usually do, and you can take it or leave it. More than likely, you'll just let me be.

These next 5 weeks are going to be quite something. The last EVER 5 weeks of highschool. FOREVER. I'm going to blink, and miss it. And then I'll be standing at a crossroad still trying to make the decision on which way to go.

I want to do so many things. I want to take photography lessons; go scuba diving; take hip hop dance classes; take art classes; actually learn how to play bass guitar & guitar properly; write a song; and design a t-shirt.

No time for dreaming - time for studying. Hardcore.

All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
Jimmy Eat World


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jimmi;

OPEN DAY, got answers, got more questions got new SHOES!
Saw a lot of faces i haven't seen in a while, especially Karen from Ruse and Davie, haven't seen that dude in ages and Frodo, Nat and Wendi.
Haha, Frodo and this cool cat called Iris got into a pub and had corona's all around with 5 dollar steak. A feast worthy of 2 hobbits!
Went Shopping with Jendoll and bought the sexiest shoes from RABEN for 20 bucks!
Ill post pictures later.

Here are photos from Pats 18th last night. You had to dress up in something that began with P, A or T.
I went as an Asian version of Tyler, the guy in the first picture.
Yes i look like a honky chink, but a hot one at that!









The rest of the photos are at:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/64818177@N00/sets/72157601650450391/


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jimmi;

Last night i learned the most important skill in the world...solving rubix cubes.
I can do them in like 3 minutes now! Woot!





And heres a random photo of me and my ebay clothes




Later days <3


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emily;

I love Jimmy Eat World.

Okay, this is gonna be one depressing blog entry but unlike Jimmi, I can't refrain from writing it any longer. And seeing as I only have 4mins to get everything out of my heart and into my mouth, here it goes...

Fuck, I'm not going to get what I need. I need a whopping 97.15 for Public Communications & International Studies at uts, and just as hard to achieve, a 96.45 for International Studies at usyd. Why do they have to make it so damn hard for kids?
For a while, I really thought I could do it. I mean, getting the ranks as of the 4th set of assessments tasks was a breeze. I got over confident. And that, ladies and gentlemen, has resulted in my tragic undoing. There goes any hope I had of actually getting, on my own two feet, what I want. I want it so bad, it kind of scares me. The last thing I wanted this bad was a dog and that was when I was 12. And buying a dog, is decidedly much different to doing well in standardised tests.
I keep brooding and going over everything that's gone grossly wrong. AND I CAN'T STOP IT. I tried playing basketball, I tried burying my heads in my books. It only serves to help for a while.
I love my friends and family, they're completely supportive. So I dont feel like I'm letting them down. I feel like I'm letting myself down. Shit, how could it get so bad?

Sorry to Brian for my outburst. I really didn't mean it. It was just how you brushed me off today. I love the way you apologised :) so very you.

Over the past week, as I look at everyone around me in their relatively happy bubbles, I kind of feel lonely. Not lonely in the sense that I have no friends to lean on (Jimmi more than fills that void); Lonely in the way that only feeling excluded from that great thing called "love" creates. I was walking from State to the Martin Place today, and God, I realised how pathetic my existence is.
I wait for the day I find that special someone that I'm not afraid to love truly, and openly. ha, coming from me, I don't think that's possible. But I want it anyways. Almost as much as I want this year to be over, and for me to be holding a paper with my desired number on it.

End of rant.
For awhile anyways.


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jimmi;

Yeah its been a while since i have blogged, but after reading so many blogs about trials and bitching about marks, i came to the conclusion who the fuck wants to read someones whining.
Like for fuck sake, we are all going through it so suck it up! and grab life by the balls.

Anyways you know what is fun? Buying shit.
Like seriously, so much enjoyment can be found in the purchasing of materialistic goods.
Long live narcissistic/hedonistic capitalism!
Blew like 400 bucks on clothes and i still have to find a new suit for formal...thinking of a tailor made, suave double breasted black suit and dressing it up with a candy striped shirt.

While i am still in my angry rant, ill tell you kids about an incident that happened on Saturday.
I was at Parramatta waiting for Justin to come as he was a FUCKING HOUR LATE.
So i was reading my book(Scar Tissue - Antony Kiedis BEST FUCKING BOOK MUST READ) outside in peace until these little shits walked passed me.
This one girl the said "looks like someone can't afford to go to a library"
I was like WTF, this chick is giving ME attitude, and i was in no mood for it, so i snapped.
I stood up and said
"Well first of all, libraries are fucking free you dumb fucking slut! But what you know you white trash piece of shit! Secondly looks like you cant afford a bag to cover your fucking ugly face, so next time you want to say some smart arse comment to some random be ready to get burned you fucking whore."
As you can see i was a little peeved, but after that i felt good and Justin came and we ate tacos :)

Later that day i got a surprise visit from Leewee, Leslie and Justin. I was half asleep when they came but i had fun calling Leewee a slut (because she is one) and drawing on Justin's face with eyeliner...haha that silly boy never learns that i never stop doing something annoying.

So now if you are reading this and your thinking what an obnoxious prick...good!
If you don't like it, then you can go fuck yourself. I seriously don't care.

Later days

OH BTW, HAPPY 18TH EIMY for the 17th!



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emily;

hehe I'm blogging on my brother's computer. How very extroadinary.

GAWD, TRIALS ARE OVERRRR :) well, they have been over for quite some time now - but I was too busy sleeping to blog about it so ... haha! Here's my most lighthearted and airy blog entry in a long long time. Gosh, it does feel so goddamn good. Hang in there all you others! It'll be over before you realise. Well, soon enough. haha I'm not very sympathetic, am I?

Jimmi, I love you - keep your chin up and that contagious grin of yours. That grin that I am going to start hating once you become the godfather of my kids; that grin that will pop up every time the house lights on fire. Wow, my future is so predictable.

Post-exam afternoons have been spent lounging around with the girls, and trying on potential formal dresses. Jess slept over yesterday and once again, I proved to be the most chicken-shit girl out there. I couldn't handle Saw 3 LOL. But what is it that makes someone tearing chains out from their skin so interesting?

Can't wait till tomorrow! ITS RICE. I am definitely going to bring a camera. This blog is so ... wordy. We're deprived of pretty piccies. Just wait! Next blog entry will be a feast for your eyes. (I think)

I am going to change. Once and for all. No more breaking hearts, no more guilt and torment in the name of romance. I don't need it. :) But I'll keep my eyes open. Just in case if that significant someone, that person who will transform my very existence as I know it, happens to walk by.

You don't go looking for love, it finds you.

(right, Jimmi? lols)


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jimmi;

parents are AS&*^(YASIUY*&(AS(&YSD(*^SD%*SD%S&%^SD$^%SD^*&%^A#$%A#S&%$^$#^%~!
Fuck they shit me some times.
Besides that all is well, including trials.
bye


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jimmi;

Trials tomorrow!
Yay =]
Been eBaying alot lately, bought this sex vest and a cool purple t-shirt.
Ill post pictures when i receive them.
Good luck everyone!
later days


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emily;

I'm finding that you and you alone,
can break my fall.
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies.

OH GAWD. I am an idiot. To the max.
I had thurs night, all of friday, all of today, and all of tomorrow to study for eco. And what did I do? I wasted thurs and friday on watching movies to "relieve stress" and spent only 3 hours today with Nat at State Library and then spending an hour and a half trying to get home. (ran into lovely leewee and kim dinh!)
Nat and I were numb to core walking back from Bankstown to Condell Park, but I guess it was a pretty cool (ha! "cool" - lame) adventure. :)

Mum and dad come home soon. I miss them, but not desperately ... yet.

Let's seeee ... what other major news. Oh yes, I HAVE CONFORMED. I couldn't take it anymore. I need a bag that fitted the following criteria:
(1) Big enough to fit all my textbooks and my extremely large folder.
(2) Looked decent.
(3) Cost under $70.
(4) So versatile that I could bring it to basketball, school, and perhaps uni in the future.
The only bag that FIT THIS CRITERIA? A COUNTRY ROAD BAG. Oh lord. I bought a Country Road bag - one of those navy ones with white stripes. hahaha I hate to admit it, but I secretly love it. If only I wasn't one of the 3 in 5 people who owned one.

Thankyou to nat for keeping me company while my parents are away, and to Jam & Jimmi for keeping an eye on me. MUCH LOVE <3

I should stop being so disappointed. I mean, what would a pathetic HIGHSCHOOL girl mean to someone like you? I'm not needed. I need to get over it.

I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself off, of the floor.
I dare you to move
Like today never happened.

(switchfoot is my eternal study buddy)


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jimmi;

Fuck, I'm so confused.
I feel for you Craig, you didn't deserve this.
First Standen's dad, now yours? and maybe Ricks?
This is too messed up.
I hope you get through this man

RIP Mr Marks

jimmi;

RUN FO FUN MOTHERFUCKERS!

I just went on my first run in like 2 months...and god damn it felt good.
Unfortunately it shows how unfit i am now, damn studying for trials!
Anyways looks like i have created a Rubick's cube sensation at school, i see all these little kids coming in with cubes, hahah!
Also i am having the habit of speaking my mind all the time, even when you don't want to.
For example last night i just finished 2 hours of English study and my mum comes in.

Mum: Why arent you studying James, HSC is only in a couple of months.
Me thinking: OMG she cant be serious, i just fucking studied.
Me speaking: Why aren't you in the kitchen?
Me thinking: HOLY CRAP, i did not just say that, damn it Aaron! you and your sexist remarks.
Mum: What did you just say?
Me thinking: SAVE, SAVE!
Me speaking: Um, can you get me a drink from the kitchen?
Mum: hmm ok... (leaves)
Me speaking: Phew...

Peace out

emily;

So so bored. Everything seems to just slide from one end to the other, with no significant events taking place in between. It's like watching one of those rulers slide to and fro on a see-saw. Wait, that's not a very everyday image, is it?

I guess the highlight of last week was seeing Leslie, Jam, Leewee, Nat, Jimmi & a whole lot of other familiar faces at USYD Open Day. :) I love yous. You make my heart go doomph doomph!

I'm trying to be normal around you, but it's proving extremely difficult. I don't know why, cause it shouldn't be. I end up either avoiding you excessively by trying too hard to make it the same as it was before, or just being downright nasty. Eh, I'm fed up with worrying. I'm just going to float around school like I usually do, and you can take it or leave it. More than likely, you'll just let me be.

These next 5 weeks are going to be quite something. The last EVER 5 weeks of highschool. FOREVER. I'm going to blink, and miss it. And then I'll be standing at a crossroad still trying to make the decision on which way to go.

I want to do so many things. I want to take photography lessons; go scuba diving; take hip hop dance classes; take art classes; actually learn how to play bass guitar & guitar properly; write a song; and design a t-shirt.

No time for dreaming - time for studying. Hardcore.

All I can say
I shouldn't say
Can we take a ride?
Get out of this place
While we still have time
Jimmy Eat World

jimmi;

OPEN DAY, got answers, got more questions got new SHOES!
Saw a lot of faces i haven't seen in a while, especially Karen from Ruse and Davie, haven't seen that dude in ages and Frodo, Nat and Wendi.
Haha, Frodo and this cool cat called Iris got into a pub and had corona's all around with 5 dollar steak. A feast worthy of 2 hobbits!
Went Shopping with Jendoll and bought the sexiest shoes from RABEN for 20 bucks!
Ill post pictures later.

Here are photos from Pats 18th last night. You had to dress up in something that began with P, A or T.
I went as an Asian version of Tyler, the guy in the first picture.
Yes i look like a honky chink, but a hot one at that!









The rest of the photos are at:
http://www.flickr.com/photos/64818177@N00/sets/72157601650450391/

jimmi;

Last night i learned the most important skill in the world...solving rubix cubes.
I can do them in like 3 minutes now! Woot!





And heres a random photo of me and my ebay clothes




Later days <3

emily;

I love Jimmy Eat World.

Okay, this is gonna be one depressing blog entry but unlike Jimmi, I can't refrain from writing it any longer. And seeing as I only have 4mins to get everything out of my heart and into my mouth, here it goes...

Fuck, I'm not going to get what I need. I need a whopping 97.15 for Public Communications & International Studies at uts, and just as hard to achieve, a 96.45 for International Studies at usyd. Why do they have to make it so damn hard for kids?
For a while, I really thought I could do it. I mean, getting the ranks as of the 4th set of assessments tasks was a breeze. I got over confident. And that, ladies and gentlemen, has resulted in my tragic undoing. There goes any hope I had of actually getting, on my own two feet, what I want. I want it so bad, it kind of scares me. The last thing I wanted this bad was a dog and that was when I was 12. And buying a dog, is decidedly much different to doing well in standardised tests.
I keep brooding and going over everything that's gone grossly wrong. AND I CAN'T STOP IT. I tried playing basketball, I tried burying my heads in my books. It only serves to help for a while.
I love my friends and family, they're completely supportive. So I dont feel like I'm letting them down. I feel like I'm letting myself down. Shit, how could it get so bad?

Sorry to Brian for my outburst. I really didn't mean it. It was just how you brushed me off today. I love the way you apologised :) so very you.

Over the past week, as I look at everyone around me in their relatively happy bubbles, I kind of feel lonely. Not lonely in the sense that I have no friends to lean on (Jimmi more than fills that void); Lonely in the way that only feeling excluded from that great thing called "love" creates. I was walking from State to the Martin Place today, and God, I realised how pathetic my existence is.
I wait for the day I find that special someone that I'm not afraid to love truly, and openly. ha, coming from me, I don't think that's possible. But I want it anyways. Almost as much as I want this year to be over, and for me to be holding a paper with my desired number on it.

End of rant.
For awhile anyways.

jimmi;

Yeah its been a while since i have blogged, but after reading so many blogs about trials and bitching about marks, i came to the conclusion who the fuck wants to read someones whining.
Like for fuck sake, we are all going through it so suck it up! and grab life by the balls.

Anyways you know what is fun? Buying shit.
Like seriously, so much enjoyment can be found in the purchasing of materialistic goods.
Long live narcissistic/hedonistic capitalism!
Blew like 400 bucks on clothes and i still have to find a new suit for formal...thinking of a tailor made, suave double breasted black suit and dressing it up with a candy striped shirt.

While i am still in my angry rant, ill tell you kids about an incident that happened on Saturday.
I was at Parramatta waiting for Justin to come as he was a FUCKING HOUR LATE.
So i was reading my book(Scar Tissue - Antony Kiedis BEST FUCKING BOOK MUST READ) outside in peace until these little shits walked passed me.
This one girl the said "looks like someone can't afford to go to a library"
I was like WTF, this chick is giving ME attitude, and i was in no mood for it, so i snapped.
I stood up and said
"Well first of all, libraries are fucking free you dumb fucking slut! But what you know you white trash piece of shit! Secondly looks like you cant afford a bag to cover your fucking ugly face, so next time you want to say some smart arse comment to some random be ready to get burned you fucking whore."
As you can see i was a little peeved, but after that i felt good and Justin came and we ate tacos :)

Later that day i got a surprise visit from Leewee, Leslie and Justin. I was half asleep when they came but i had fun calling Leewee a slut (because she is one) and drawing on Justin's face with eyeliner...haha that silly boy never learns that i never stop doing something annoying.

So now if you are reading this and your thinking what an obnoxious prick...good!
If you don't like it, then you can go fuck yourself. I seriously don't care.

Later days

OH BTW, HAPPY 18TH EIMY for the 17th!


emily;




emily;












emily;

hehe I'm blogging on my brother's computer. How very extroadinary.

GAWD, TRIALS ARE OVERRRR :) well, they have been over for quite some time now - but I was too busy sleeping to blog about it so ... haha! Here's my most lighthearted and airy blog entry in a long long time. Gosh, it does feel so goddamn good. Hang in there all you others! It'll be over before you realise. Well, soon enough. haha I'm not very sympathetic, am I?

Jimmi, I love you - keep your chin up and that contagious grin of yours. That grin that I am going to start hating once you become the godfather of my kids; that grin that will pop up every time the house lights on fire. Wow, my future is so predictable.

Post-exam afternoons have been spent lounging around with the girls, and trying on potential formal dresses. Jess slept over yesterday and once again, I proved to be the most chicken-shit girl out there. I couldn't handle Saw 3 LOL. But what is it that makes someone tearing chains out from their skin so interesting?

Can't wait till tomorrow! ITS RICE. I am definitely going to bring a camera. This blog is so ... wordy. We're deprived of pretty piccies. Just wait! Next blog entry will be a feast for your eyes. (I think)

I am going to change. Once and for all. No more breaking hearts, no more guilt and torment in the name of romance. I don't need it. :) But I'll keep my eyes open. Just in case if that significant someone, that person who will transform my very existence as I know it, happens to walk by.

You don't go looking for love, it finds you.

(right, Jimmi? lols)

jimmi;

parents are AS&*^(YASIUY*&(AS(&YSD(*^SD%*SD%S&%^SD$^%SD^*&%^A#$%A#S&%$^$#^%~!
Fuck they shit me some times.
Besides that all is well, including trials.
bye

jimmi;

Trials tomorrow!
Yay =]
Been eBaying alot lately, bought this sex vest and a cool purple t-shirt.
Ill post pictures when i receive them.
Good luck everyone!
later days

emily;

I'm finding that you and you alone,
can break my fall.
I'm dying to breathe in these abundant skies.

OH GAWD. I am an idiot. To the max.
I had thurs night, all of friday, all of today, and all of tomorrow to study for eco. And what did I do? I wasted thurs and friday on watching movies to "relieve stress" and spent only 3 hours today with Nat at State Library and then spending an hour and a half trying to get home. (ran into lovely leewee and kim dinh!)
Nat and I were numb to core walking back from Bankstown to Condell Park, but I guess it was a pretty cool (ha! "cool" - lame) adventure. :)

Mum and dad come home soon. I miss them, but not desperately ... yet.

Let's seeee ... what other major news. Oh yes, I HAVE CONFORMED. I couldn't take it anymore. I need a bag that fitted the following criteria:
(1) Big enough to fit all my textbooks and my extremely large folder.
(2) Looked decent.
(3) Cost under $70.
(4) So versatile that I could bring it to basketball, school, and perhaps uni in the future.
The only bag that FIT THIS CRITERIA? A COUNTRY ROAD BAG. Oh lord. I bought a Country Road bag - one of those navy ones with white stripes. hahaha I hate to admit it, but I secretly love it. If only I wasn't one of the 3 in 5 people who owned one.

Thankyou to nat for keeping me company while my parents are away, and to Jam & Jimmi for keeping an eye on me. MUCH LOVE <3

I should stop being so disappointed. I mean, what would a pathetic HIGHSCHOOL girl mean to someone like you? I'm not needed. I need to get over it.

I dare you to move
I dare you to lift yourself off, of the floor.
I dare you to move
Like today never happened.

(switchfoot is my eternal study buddy)