jimmi;

Wassup! Been a good week i guess.
Push Started a crappy Corolla ,
Shot down my English teacher,
Pwned the UMAT
Drew a picture for the math competition
Made new friends with randoms
Good week =)

Well I could be like everyone else and bitch about how the trials/HSC is ruining my life ect ect.
But i like everyone else there really couldn't give a rats arse about your whining.
So you compainers out there, SUCK IT UP!
We all have to go through it as well, dont think your SPECIAL...EVER!

Been watching scrubs heaps lately, its such a good show.
I remember this one snippet where JD tells the janitor the riddle
"Two coins add up to 30 cents, one of them isn't a nickel. What are the two coins?"
The answer is a nickle and a dime, as the OTHER coin is a nickel.
So when the janitor finnally gets the riddle, he and a friend go to JD's bike and smash it up.
The the Janitor goes to JD "Two guys smashed up your bike, One of them wasn't me."
HAHAHAHAHA, genius!

Anyways back to the mentioned events. On Monday Blake bought a 600 dollar shitbox Corolla.
It was so bad that we had to push start it out of the school. Ah the image of four guys pushing that yellow piece of crap out of the school carpark is magical <3

On tuesday my english teacher caught me sleeping and she goes to me
Teacher:"James do you want me to speak softer so you can sleep?"
Jimmi: (sleepily) yeah yeah..uh what?
Teacher: James if you keep this up, you will fail your english paper, then you will fail the HSC, then what will you do?
Jimmi: Um...Become and english teacher, because thats what you did right?
HAHAHA, she didn't say anything for the rest of the lesson...so good!

Later that day i was in bankstown and i ran into randoms who apparently went to my tutor. They offered me lift there, me being stupid at the time agreed to go.
Asian drivers are crazy bad drivers! At least im still alive...but would i accept a lift off a stranger again?...absolutely =)

Finally to Emily: All the best with trials =)


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emily;

I keep oscillating between states of extreme panic, and states of indifference. Right now, I'm sort of somewhere in between. But I bet once I look at how little I've written on King Lear, I'm gonna be ... yep, right back to panic & being hella scared. Mum keeps saying "it'll be over in less than 2 weeks" - easy for her to say. But it's okay :) There's so many things to look forward to... like formal shopping the girls, eating icecream while watching the Notebook with Nat, and just downright doing anything I want.

Anyways, a week which started off dreadfully pretty much ended on a high!
Last night was bloody AWESOME. We played some other Bankstown Sports team and beat them 36 - 30 WITH Tu fouled out. haha glorious! One of the girls on the other team fully wrenched at my jersey when I was on a fast break and nearly made me stack it ... thrice. Gosh, who every knew girls could be so aggressive. But still. WE WON!
I hate it when boys watch our game though lol. I always try to concentrate and not make a fool of myself, but of course, the opposite happens. Hopefully they didn't notice.

I feel guilty about something other than my studies. My parents have always been there for me right? So is my action of ignoring them justified by my obsession with hitting the books?
Mum told me today that I was probably the only person who still hung out with her. Marriage seems so goddamn hard. Man, I can't even sustain a relationship for more than 6 months, let alone years and years of being committed to that one particular person. It's never going to happen.
haha I guess I'll die lonely.

I keep tripping on thoughts in my head,
I can't believe the selfish eyes of mine.
And I know, I haven't been myself for so long, so long.

Am I too late to go home
Am I too late, to see the road
Or is it obvious to know?
- Playjerise


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jimmi;

Hello all. Hectic week.
UMAT and trials and all.
I hope to all they are not stressing you to the point of hallucinations of pink elephants and rainbows.
Anyways, yes ive been hermit for a while, and will be for a while longer.
UMAT was heaps fun, pwned it easy Seftoners =P
And i think some chick was checking me out? She kept on staring and smiling at me.
Oh, congrats to Katarina for getting accepted into Notre Dame.
Fucking good effort girl, im heaps proud of you =)
Well its time to study and tell Jennings why i cant go to his party :(
later days


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emily;

oh gawd. I decided to take a "power nap", emphasis on the word 'nap', after coming home from the library today. I ended up sleeping for a useless 3 hours. I'm so sick of feeling guilty for not having all my work done, for not know how to do questions in past papers and feeling like I'm going to start slipping. DIE HSC DIE.

Oh something else I hate? Everytime you're brought up. Please people, not again. There's no point.

I'm so bitter. I'm trying not to let everyone else see it, cause I know how I feel helpless when other people around me are. I guess this is what my blog has resorted to being - a bitching fest. haha (sorry leslie <3).

I love Janna :). We had a pretty nice conversation last night, and you really listened, so thankyou very v. much. *sighs* It has made me want a Peyton-Lucas moment under the post-streamers of a championship basketball win, to the sounds of Jose Gonzalez. Or maybe one of those Hayley-Nathan moments that make me go all "awwwww" inside.
Argh, pathetic!

Please let this pass.

...and big girls don't cry.


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jimmi;

First of all, sorry i haven't been on msn in a while and i wont be for a while longer. So to all the people who wish to talk to me or need to
ring me: 0401 321 983
or
email me le.jimmi@hotmail.com

Been trying to cram 2 years of work into 2 weeks, even though i can work magic i cant perform miracles!
Anyways today i was at the library and i stuck up a conversation with this African Couple, I didn't quite catch their names, but the guy had the most genuine smile i have ever seen.
Like when he smiled it was pure happiness, no snide hidden thoughts or anything of the sort.
Just a smile. It is refreshing to see that not all people are affected and molded by todays social norms.
UMAT in a couple of days, that will be fun.
I will be waking up at fucking 5 to get ready for it, god friggen damn it! At least i can spend time in the city afterwards, i love that place.
Kevin, my buddy from Kansas called me the other day. It was so good to hear his voice again in like 4 years. Hes in New York!
Bloody bastard is stealing my dream, haha. He told me to head up so we could hang out.
AH i wish i could, except for this damn HSC! Ill see you soon mate!
Jenfer called me today, i had a long much needed talk with her. I love my random conversations with you, haha GLITTER all the way baby!
Anyways sleepy time for this frish

later days

p.s Emily: Its ok Sally, your busy navigating this ship away from disaster, you can always get back to the captain later, he understands <3


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emily;

about an hour and 5mins until midnight on this saturday, and I still haven't started my Frontline essay. Goddamnit, I'm supposed to be good at English.

And I, want a moment to be real.
Want to touch things I don't feel.
Want to feel like, I belong. - I'm Still Here, John Rzeznik

Apologies to all the friends I've neglected, especially Jimmi and Leewee. I promise I'll try to be better. Yep, that's me. Always trying to be better.


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Jimmi;

This is way past due, but this post is dedicated to Sally or also known as Emily.

I am so grateful that we have been friends since...forever? haha
Your the only person I know that will always be there for me, no matter how far apart we may be.
Yes, i know i put your through alot of crap, much of it because of my over thinking nature.
AND THANK YOU for putting up with it and sticking around, it means alot to me.
Your the sweetest girl i know, I know because of this quality alone you will bring you happiness in life.
Happyness (yes i know i spelled it wrong on purpose) you so much deserve =)

Love you as much as a fat kid loves cake =P

Captain Jack xx

p.s. on a second inspection of that photograph you took of Kelvin, its not too bad, just next time dont put him too off centre and give some background behind his head. <3







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emily;

LOL I just realised that I have utterly wasted my entire holidays. Pagani (my economics teacher, better known as 'Paggles') sent an email to everyone in our class detailing all the work we should have done over the last 2 weeks. I haven't even done the first point! Oh my goodness ... I read emails way too late.

" I don’t want to upset your holiday joy but that big fat HSC exam is coming too soon for you to relax. There are my expectations:

1. Read over the two issues of Distribution of Income & Wealth and Environmental Management.
2. Complete the Chapter Reviews for both of these issues.
3. Prepare an essay plan for the following question:
“Analyse the role and implementation of monetary policy as a tool of economic management in the Australian economy. (2005 Independent Trial – Q25)”. Use my essay plans as a guide to structuring your response.
4. Briefly read over Fiscal Policy, which is the other economic policy that you will be examined on in the Trial.
5. Complete the 2003 HSC under exam conditions. You may complete it in parts but make sure that each section is done under strict conditions – no open books and accurately timed.

This is the absolute minimum you should be doing over the 2 weeks. Do not waste your holidays. You MUST conceptualise this break as a stuvac. Time is not on your side and the Trial and HSC exams are very, very challenging in scope.
I can only do so much for you. Ultimately it is about how hard you are willing to work. Don’t let yourself down – regrets can last a very long time."

Oh bloody great, he basically unleashed the whole of Judgement Day on me. The motivation I needed was floating around in cyberspace and I find it on the last day of my holidays.

Hey, the new sum 41 album is pretty good :)

p.s. Welcome back Jimmi. No offence, but I liked the non-lovesick version of you better hehe <3.


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jimmi;

Today something weird happened, I stopped thinking =)
I've finally been able to let go, for some strange and unknown reason.
Whether it be the magic of time or the spontaneous nature of the heart, one thing is certain.
IM BACK BABY!
I thank all of those I have burdened with my troubles especially Emily and Jen.
I love you guys more than a fat kid loves a cupcake.

p.s. To the girl who has a piece of my heart; I don't know if your reading this, but remember that I will always have a soft spot in my heart for you. =)


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emily;

HOLY SHIT, I JUST GOT NOTEBOOKED.

(yeah yeah, I know ... I'm a little slow. Oh my goodness. I love Noah.)


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emily;

We should get jerseys cause we make a great team
But yours would look better than mine, cause you're outta my league - Relient K

Jimmi says I don't blog. So, this blog serves the sole purpose of proving him wrong :).

For the past 2 weeks I have been going up to my local video store twice every week. haha kind of sad and embarassing really, but god, I do love a good movie on a quiet night at home. And yes, I do have a point to all of this. There are these 2 guys who work there, and they're absolutely gorgeous. Not gorgeous in the sense that I can't stop staring at their rugged good-looks, but gorgeous in the way beautiful human beings are.
See, there's Steve who goes to unsw and who has an opinion on about every movie in that shop. haha he says I should work there, seeing as it's my second home anyways. And the other guy, Matt, loves asians LOL. He told me about going karoke and taking sticker photos for the first time (yeah, aussie bloke) and how he would convert to being yellow if he could.
I wasted 30mins of my life in that video store tonight - bloody terrific :). I am def. going to apply for a job there after this stupid HSC thing is all over.

I think I'm more dependent on people than I thought I was. But still, I'm gonna get through this year with a huge grin on my face whether or not you're there with me.
Ohhh yeahh, nemo is back! :D

p.s. I love jam, leslie, jenny, lan, richard & jimmi with all my heart. <3


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Jimmi;

Looks like I'm the only one writing on this blog.
Anyways, things have happened, can't be bothered explaining them in whole so the gist of it is yeah, something weird?
Ive been blacking out a lot lately, I woke up in Hyde Park yesterday have no idea how I ended up there. But i do remember getting chased by a group of Abo's and a homeless dude while I was on my photo safari in the city/paddington.
God, I love taking photos! Reaffirms my Dreams of being a professional photographer when I leave school.

This week I have been having quite a few intellectual conversations with scholarly friends.
Been having a lot of philosophical talks with Khu lately as well. haha!
Talking about the standards of taste and the mysteriousness nature of emotions and appreciation of them.
That guy always surprises me with stuff like that!
Maybe I should do a course in philosophy too?

Also i have had interesting talks with Denis.
He made me think about the concept of sleep and how much more productive we can be if we didn't. But then I was like imagine a world where you never slept. Would you get bored of life?
I believe that we need the restriction of sleep to further our appreciation of our experiences. Each moment, memory and experience could be our last before we sleep.

Ancryu gave me insight about flings and relationships, however I see some of his views with flaws as he is disregarding the unpredictable human complex. The reaction of one person to a particular issue can vary with the billions of individuals that exist in todays expansive world.

Anyways my holidays have been filled with study and not going out. Very uncharacteristic of me
so I hope that these next few months pass by quickly so I can be on that fateful plane to NYC.
A blank slate, a tabula rasa. Something I could so with now.

Later days


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jimmi;

Today is a special day, besides it being Jen's birthday it is also a day of realisation for yours truly.
For the past few months i have been feeling well how to put this delicately...shitty.
At first I thought i was just experiencing the pains of a break up, and yes we all know we all never get over an ex.
But Damn! Its been like ages and I'm still thinking of this girl constantly! She invades my thought, my dreams and my heart still!
Could it be? Am I in love with the girl that broke my heart?
Or maybe its the ice cream i ate today is making me feel weird.
Either way it could be a reasonable explanation for this roller coaster ride of emotion i have been feeling the past few months.
Any criticism on this topic is very welcome, all i want are explanations, more over ANSWERS!

I made a new email le.jimmi@hotmail.com add me =)

Later Days


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jimmi;

HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY JENNIFER!

LOVE YOU FUCKING HEAPS BITCH!

I hope you eat so much cake that you will explode and that rainbows brighten up every moment of your special day and that Wentworth Miller is waiting in your bedroom =)

Love always!


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emily;

What a dreary day - everywhere you go, always take the weather with you. Amen to Crowded House.

Let's see. It's the 2nd week of the holidays and despite having not seen anyone from school besides Davo in the last week, I still haven't gotten past the fact that everything's not so neat and tidy like I thought it was. Alright, everyone is completely right. Why care for? It's in the past. You're the one who bloody ended it. So yes, I shouldn't care. And no, I don't. But something still isn't right.
Maybe I'm a bit of a idealist, like Dawson. (ha! Dawson's Creek - I am so addicted). Maybe if I stop thinking that my final year of highschool should be perfect, and that graduation should happen like it does in teen movies ... then maybe I wouldn't feel like this.
For someone who says she can cope with change and doesn't mind the occassional moving around, I'm pretty much lost.

I want to be grown up. I want to annihilate my insecurities and know exactly who I am and what I want. I want to be sure, of ... everything. I want so much, to be better.

Yeah, lost cause. I think I'll just sit here and look out the window for about 20mins and then start my Maths notes.

It's times like these you wish you hadn't left that particular day.

"So, my headphones were my constant companions
Around my neck they were constantly hanging
And late at night when I'm haunted by phantoms
The songs I would jam would subconsciously ban them
And damn, I know it's just lyrics and beats
But lyrics to me are like infinite peace, And peace
Is what hip hop had brought me
Strumming my pain like it was "Killing Me Softly"Killing me,
but what a way to die Overdosed on flows, comatose on rhymes
And I, Wanna drift away
Staying conscious enough just to hit replay, okay

Gimme that beat boys, gimme that flow
Let me live within the rhythm, let me free my soul, and drift away"
- Magnetic North, Drift Away

P.S. One of my relatives (second cousin I think?) started making music. He's from France. So um yeah, check it out? - http://www.myspace.com/dustloc


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jimmi;

Tis another gloomy day in the shire, wait is Illawong still part of the shire?
It is a topic of heated debated amongst my group of hobbits.
About Hobbits....2 are seemingly getting along quite nicely, enjoy your peace before the inevitable trip to Mordor.
Rain is a good thing for Oz right now, how ever it brings with it such negative connotations that one cannot help but be how should i put it....down with the blues.
Erratic sleeping patterns and lost emotions have been the guide for my self-destructive behavior these past few days. My desire to eat is replaced with this absurd sense of loneliness.
Perhaps Dom was right, there is no such thing as love, just degrees of attractiveness.
How i wish this stupid feeling to leave, it is cramping my style of...me.
I need a break from studying, from home, just from everything.


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emily;

WHY THE HELL DID I CUT MY HAIR? Gosh, I am such an idiot.
I went to this Viet hairdresser in Bankstown today (thanks to Khu for the lift) and asked for a trim. Approximately 15mins later, my hair has been butchered 8cm shorter to what it used to be. To make matters worse, I only just got it straightened for $90 about a month and a half ago ... and now it's like .. wavy again! OMG WHY WHY WHY. Mother is going to kill me. She's going to say "I told you so" and "what a waste of your money" and "your hair takes forever to grow, how could you?".
Ah, I am so goddamn cut about an event which is completely superficial and materialistic. But I can't help it. My hair was started to get long for the first time in my life.
As kelvin would say, "but you're supposed to have short hair, you're a boy!".

*sighs*

p.s. don't brood too much USYD - I heard it was one hell of a game.


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jimmi;

I've had the weirdest dream just then.
The first part is that my family has traveled to some Asian country, i think Thailand.
Anyways something happened and we are forced to walk over some line above this red/brown water. Which i assume to be a shit creek.
Anyways we start crossing it and then all of a sudden the guy making us cross it snaps the line and we all fall into the river.

Now when im first in the river im like oh shit my Nudies! Then im like oh no my phone.
So now both items are ruined, we continue to wade to the village. I see heaps of children crowding round houses and i think the were playing games and people were watching.

I wander off and i find this very thin but 5 story purple house.
I go in and i find out my friend Van Damn is inside and it is his parents house.
First im like wtf but then i meet all my friends from the shire. I see Jack, Hutt, Cass, Jenna, Scott, Rhys, Emma and more people that i cant remember and some randoms and they all give me hugs?
So i walk up the stairs to find a shower and i find one. I go inside take off my shit smelling clothes and open the door to the shower and i find some random girl there. I, stark naked, ask her to leave but she wont so i go in and have a shower while shes still inside. Anyways next thing i know shes disappeared and Van Damn comes in with a goat?

This is when i wake up and i think of what a fucking crazy dream this was.


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jimmi;

I am home at last, past few days have been quite hectic.
Spent Monday and Tuesday at some stupid pre hsc trial thing.
Maths was possibly the hardest test i have ever done.
At first glance i knew i wasn't going to put in my massive effort.
So i did what anyone would do i fudged it =)
Haha, Mr.Buu was heaps funny that day. He kept on telling us to take it easy and interrupted us every half hour to tell us something "important".
I felt sorry for the people who don't get to appreciate his awesomeness.
He "showered" us free kfc! haha such an awesome dude.

ON the train home we were unfortunate enough to share a carriage with 3 country girls, fucking most annoying girls ever.
They are like you immature kids who think they are king shit, just fatter and uglier and possibly stupider.
They kept on saying "Are you a wansta?" to each other and i just wanted to say "NO YOUR FAT"

Anyways on the second day we had chem, i was so drained from last time all the questions were a blur to me. One of the questions asked me to draw a diagram of a rechargeable battery, i didn't know what it looked like so i drew an elephant. The head guy wasn't too pleased.

Now today is Wednesday and i am home. How dreary it is. I am contemplating my suppose incompleteness. Why do i feel this strongly for a person who may never feel the same way back. This conundrum i am in. Waiting for this HSC to end so i can finally get the answers i want and desperately need.

On a lighter note, clothes make me happy. Bought a new jacket the other day =)





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emily;

Revolution of the decade - Tim has finally moved his computer OUT of my room, and into his own. What does this impose for me? Well, let's see ... no more yucky trance; no more random screams from counter strike and dota in the middle of the night; and most of all .. PRIVACY. About time, aye? :)

My internet is so dumb. It is so incredibly dumb that it will not go faster than the speed of dial-up and refuses to cure it's dumbness. I blame Telstra Bigpond. Those corporate kings are the cause behind the dumbness of my internet connection.

It feels so good to be on holidays :) - I don't care. I am going to at least have a little time for myself before buckling down for the trials.




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jimmi;

Wassup! Been a good week i guess.
Push Started a crappy Corolla ,
Shot down my English teacher,
Pwned the UMAT
Drew a picture for the math competition
Made new friends with randoms
Good week =)

Well I could be like everyone else and bitch about how the trials/HSC is ruining my life ect ect.
But i like everyone else there really couldn't give a rats arse about your whining.
So you compainers out there, SUCK IT UP!
We all have to go through it as well, dont think your SPECIAL...EVER!

Been watching scrubs heaps lately, its such a good show.
I remember this one snippet where JD tells the janitor the riddle
"Two coins add up to 30 cents, one of them isn't a nickel. What are the two coins?"
The answer is a nickle and a dime, as the OTHER coin is a nickel.
So when the janitor finnally gets the riddle, he and a friend go to JD's bike and smash it up.
The the Janitor goes to JD "Two guys smashed up your bike, One of them wasn't me."
HAHAHAHAHA, genius!

Anyways back to the mentioned events. On Monday Blake bought a 600 dollar shitbox Corolla.
It was so bad that we had to push start it out of the school. Ah the image of four guys pushing that yellow piece of crap out of the school carpark is magical <3

On tuesday my english teacher caught me sleeping and she goes to me
Teacher:"James do you want me to speak softer so you can sleep?"
Jimmi: (sleepily) yeah yeah..uh what?
Teacher: James if you keep this up, you will fail your english paper, then you will fail the HSC, then what will you do?
Jimmi: Um...Become and english teacher, because thats what you did right?
HAHAHA, she didn't say anything for the rest of the lesson...so good!

Later that day i was in bankstown and i ran into randoms who apparently went to my tutor. They offered me lift there, me being stupid at the time agreed to go.
Asian drivers are crazy bad drivers! At least im still alive...but would i accept a lift off a stranger again?...absolutely =)

Finally to Emily: All the best with trials =)

emily;

I keep oscillating between states of extreme panic, and states of indifference. Right now, I'm sort of somewhere in between. But I bet once I look at how little I've written on King Lear, I'm gonna be ... yep, right back to panic & being hella scared. Mum keeps saying "it'll be over in less than 2 weeks" - easy for her to say. But it's okay :) There's so many things to look forward to... like formal shopping the girls, eating icecream while watching the Notebook with Nat, and just downright doing anything I want.

Anyways, a week which started off dreadfully pretty much ended on a high!
Last night was bloody AWESOME. We played some other Bankstown Sports team and beat them 36 - 30 WITH Tu fouled out. haha glorious! One of the girls on the other team fully wrenched at my jersey when I was on a fast break and nearly made me stack it ... thrice. Gosh, who every knew girls could be so aggressive. But still. WE WON!
I hate it when boys watch our game though lol. I always try to concentrate and not make a fool of myself, but of course, the opposite happens. Hopefully they didn't notice.

I feel guilty about something other than my studies. My parents have always been there for me right? So is my action of ignoring them justified by my obsession with hitting the books?
Mum told me today that I was probably the only person who still hung out with her. Marriage seems so goddamn hard. Man, I can't even sustain a relationship for more than 6 months, let alone years and years of being committed to that one particular person. It's never going to happen.
haha I guess I'll die lonely.

I keep tripping on thoughts in my head,
I can't believe the selfish eyes of mine.
And I know, I haven't been myself for so long, so long.

Am I too late to go home
Am I too late, to see the road
Or is it obvious to know?
- Playjerise

jimmi;

Hello all. Hectic week.
UMAT and trials and all.
I hope to all they are not stressing you to the point of hallucinations of pink elephants and rainbows.
Anyways, yes ive been hermit for a while, and will be for a while longer.
UMAT was heaps fun, pwned it easy Seftoners =P
And i think some chick was checking me out? She kept on staring and smiling at me.
Oh, congrats to Katarina for getting accepted into Notre Dame.
Fucking good effort girl, im heaps proud of you =)
Well its time to study and tell Jennings why i cant go to his party :(
later days

emily;

oh gawd. I decided to take a "power nap", emphasis on the word 'nap', after coming home from the library today. I ended up sleeping for a useless 3 hours. I'm so sick of feeling guilty for not having all my work done, for not know how to do questions in past papers and feeling like I'm going to start slipping. DIE HSC DIE.

Oh something else I hate? Everytime you're brought up. Please people, not again. There's no point.

I'm so bitter. I'm trying not to let everyone else see it, cause I know how I feel helpless when other people around me are. I guess this is what my blog has resorted to being - a bitching fest. haha (sorry leslie <3).

I love Janna :). We had a pretty nice conversation last night, and you really listened, so thankyou very v. much. *sighs* It has made me want a Peyton-Lucas moment under the post-streamers of a championship basketball win, to the sounds of Jose Gonzalez. Or maybe one of those Hayley-Nathan moments that make me go all "awwwww" inside.
Argh, pathetic!

Please let this pass.

...and big girls don't cry.

jimmi;

First of all, sorry i haven't been on msn in a while and i wont be for a while longer. So to all the people who wish to talk to me or need to
ring me: 0401 321 983
or
email me le.jimmi@hotmail.com

Been trying to cram 2 years of work into 2 weeks, even though i can work magic i cant perform miracles!
Anyways today i was at the library and i stuck up a conversation with this African Couple, I didn't quite catch their names, but the guy had the most genuine smile i have ever seen.
Like when he smiled it was pure happiness, no snide hidden thoughts or anything of the sort.
Just a smile. It is refreshing to see that not all people are affected and molded by todays social norms.
UMAT in a couple of days, that will be fun.
I will be waking up at fucking 5 to get ready for it, god friggen damn it! At least i can spend time in the city afterwards, i love that place.
Kevin, my buddy from Kansas called me the other day. It was so good to hear his voice again in like 4 years. Hes in New York!
Bloody bastard is stealing my dream, haha. He told me to head up so we could hang out.
AH i wish i could, except for this damn HSC! Ill see you soon mate!
Jenfer called me today, i had a long much needed talk with her. I love my random conversations with you, haha GLITTER all the way baby!
Anyways sleepy time for this frish

later days

p.s Emily: Its ok Sally, your busy navigating this ship away from disaster, you can always get back to the captain later, he understands <3

emily;

about an hour and 5mins until midnight on this saturday, and I still haven't started my Frontline essay. Goddamnit, I'm supposed to be good at English.

And I, want a moment to be real.
Want to touch things I don't feel.
Want to feel like, I belong. - I'm Still Here, John Rzeznik

Apologies to all the friends I've neglected, especially Jimmi and Leewee. I promise I'll try to be better. Yep, that's me. Always trying to be better.

Jimmi;

This is way past due, but this post is dedicated to Sally or also known as Emily.

I am so grateful that we have been friends since...forever? haha
Your the only person I know that will always be there for me, no matter how far apart we may be.
Yes, i know i put your through alot of crap, much of it because of my over thinking nature.
AND THANK YOU for putting up with it and sticking around, it means alot to me.
Your the sweetest girl i know, I know because of this quality alone you will bring you happiness in life.
Happyness (yes i know i spelled it wrong on purpose) you so much deserve =)

Love you as much as a fat kid loves cake =P

Captain Jack xx

p.s. on a second inspection of that photograph you took of Kelvin, its not too bad, just next time dont put him too off centre and give some background behind his head. <3






emily;

LOL I just realised that I have utterly wasted my entire holidays. Pagani (my economics teacher, better known as 'Paggles') sent an email to everyone in our class detailing all the work we should have done over the last 2 weeks. I haven't even done the first point! Oh my goodness ... I read emails way too late.

" I don’t want to upset your holiday joy but that big fat HSC exam is coming too soon for you to relax. There are my expectations:

1. Read over the two issues of Distribution of Income & Wealth and Environmental Management.
2. Complete the Chapter Reviews for both of these issues.
3. Prepare an essay plan for the following question:
“Analyse the role and implementation of monetary policy as a tool of economic management in the Australian economy. (2005 Independent Trial – Q25)”. Use my essay plans as a guide to structuring your response.
4. Briefly read over Fiscal Policy, which is the other economic policy that you will be examined on in the Trial.
5. Complete the 2003 HSC under exam conditions. You may complete it in parts but make sure that each section is done under strict conditions – no open books and accurately timed.

This is the absolute minimum you should be doing over the 2 weeks. Do not waste your holidays. You MUST conceptualise this break as a stuvac. Time is not on your side and the Trial and HSC exams are very, very challenging in scope.
I can only do so much for you. Ultimately it is about how hard you are willing to work. Don’t let yourself down – regrets can last a very long time."

Oh bloody great, he basically unleashed the whole of Judgement Day on me. The motivation I needed was floating around in cyberspace and I find it on the last day of my holidays.

Hey, the new sum 41 album is pretty good :)

p.s. Welcome back Jimmi. No offence, but I liked the non-lovesick version of you better hehe <3.

jimmi;

Today something weird happened, I stopped thinking =)
I've finally been able to let go, for some strange and unknown reason.
Whether it be the magic of time or the spontaneous nature of the heart, one thing is certain.
IM BACK BABY!
I thank all of those I have burdened with my troubles especially Emily and Jen.
I love you guys more than a fat kid loves a cupcake.

p.s. To the girl who has a piece of my heart; I don't know if your reading this, but remember that I will always have a soft spot in my heart for you. =)

emily;

HOLY SHIT, I JUST GOT NOTEBOOKED.

(yeah yeah, I know ... I'm a little slow. Oh my goodness. I love Noah.)

emily;

We should get jerseys cause we make a great team
But yours would look better than mine, cause you're outta my league - Relient K

Jimmi says I don't blog. So, this blog serves the sole purpose of proving him wrong :).

For the past 2 weeks I have been going up to my local video store twice every week. haha kind of sad and embarassing really, but god, I do love a good movie on a quiet night at home. And yes, I do have a point to all of this. There are these 2 guys who work there, and they're absolutely gorgeous. Not gorgeous in the sense that I can't stop staring at their rugged good-looks, but gorgeous in the way beautiful human beings are.
See, there's Steve who goes to unsw and who has an opinion on about every movie in that shop. haha he says I should work there, seeing as it's my second home anyways. And the other guy, Matt, loves asians LOL. He told me about going karoke and taking sticker photos for the first time (yeah, aussie bloke) and how he would convert to being yellow if he could.
I wasted 30mins of my life in that video store tonight - bloody terrific :). I am def. going to apply for a job there after this stupid HSC thing is all over.

I think I'm more dependent on people than I thought I was. But still, I'm gonna get through this year with a huge grin on my face whether or not you're there with me.
Ohhh yeahh, nemo is back! :D

p.s. I love jam, leslie, jenny, lan, richard & jimmi with all my heart. <3

Jimmi;

Looks like I'm the only one writing on this blog.
Anyways, things have happened, can't be bothered explaining them in whole so the gist of it is yeah, something weird?
Ive been blacking out a lot lately, I woke up in Hyde Park yesterday have no idea how I ended up there. But i do remember getting chased by a group of Abo's and a homeless dude while I was on my photo safari in the city/paddington.
God, I love taking photos! Reaffirms my Dreams of being a professional photographer when I leave school.

This week I have been having quite a few intellectual conversations with scholarly friends.
Been having a lot of philosophical talks with Khu lately as well. haha!
Talking about the standards of taste and the mysteriousness nature of emotions and appreciation of them.
That guy always surprises me with stuff like that!
Maybe I should do a course in philosophy too?

Also i have had interesting talks with Denis.
He made me think about the concept of sleep and how much more productive we can be if we didn't. But then I was like imagine a world where you never slept. Would you get bored of life?
I believe that we need the restriction of sleep to further our appreciation of our experiences. Each moment, memory and experience could be our last before we sleep.

Ancryu gave me insight about flings and relationships, however I see some of his views with flaws as he is disregarding the unpredictable human complex. The reaction of one person to a particular issue can vary with the billions of individuals that exist in todays expansive world.

Anyways my holidays have been filled with study and not going out. Very uncharacteristic of me
so I hope that these next few months pass by quickly so I can be on that fateful plane to NYC.
A blank slate, a tabula rasa. Something I could so with now.

Later days

jimmi;

Today is a special day, besides it being Jen's birthday it is also a day of realisation for yours truly.
For the past few months i have been feeling well how to put this delicately...shitty.
At first I thought i was just experiencing the pains of a break up, and yes we all know we all never get over an ex.
But Damn! Its been like ages and I'm still thinking of this girl constantly! She invades my thought, my dreams and my heart still!
Could it be? Am I in love with the girl that broke my heart?
Or maybe its the ice cream i ate today is making me feel weird.
Either way it could be a reasonable explanation for this roller coaster ride of emotion i have been feeling the past few months.
Any criticism on this topic is very welcome, all i want are explanations, more over ANSWERS!

I made a new email le.jimmi@hotmail.com add me =)

Later Days

jimmi;

HAPPY FUCKING BIRTHDAY JENNIFER!

LOVE YOU FUCKING HEAPS BITCH!

I hope you eat so much cake that you will explode and that rainbows brighten up every moment of your special day and that Wentworth Miller is waiting in your bedroom =)

Love always!

emily;

What a dreary day - everywhere you go, always take the weather with you. Amen to Crowded House.

Let's see. It's the 2nd week of the holidays and despite having not seen anyone from school besides Davo in the last week, I still haven't gotten past the fact that everything's not so neat and tidy like I thought it was. Alright, everyone is completely right. Why care for? It's in the past. You're the one who bloody ended it. So yes, I shouldn't care. And no, I don't. But something still isn't right.
Maybe I'm a bit of a idealist, like Dawson. (ha! Dawson's Creek - I am so addicted). Maybe if I stop thinking that my final year of highschool should be perfect, and that graduation should happen like it does in teen movies ... then maybe I wouldn't feel like this.
For someone who says she can cope with change and doesn't mind the occassional moving around, I'm pretty much lost.

I want to be grown up. I want to annihilate my insecurities and know exactly who I am and what I want. I want to be sure, of ... everything. I want so much, to be better.

Yeah, lost cause. I think I'll just sit here and look out the window for about 20mins and then start my Maths notes.

It's times like these you wish you hadn't left that particular day.

"So, my headphones were my constant companions
Around my neck they were constantly hanging
And late at night when I'm haunted by phantoms
The songs I would jam would subconsciously ban them
And damn, I know it's just lyrics and beats
But lyrics to me are like infinite peace, And peace
Is what hip hop had brought me
Strumming my pain like it was "Killing Me Softly"Killing me,
but what a way to die Overdosed on flows, comatose on rhymes
And I, Wanna drift away
Staying conscious enough just to hit replay, okay

Gimme that beat boys, gimme that flow
Let me live within the rhythm, let me free my soul, and drift away"
- Magnetic North, Drift Away

P.S. One of my relatives (second cousin I think?) started making music. He's from France. So um yeah, check it out? - http://www.myspace.com/dustloc

jimmi;

Tis another gloomy day in the shire, wait is Illawong still part of the shire?
It is a topic of heated debated amongst my group of hobbits.
About Hobbits....2 are seemingly getting along quite nicely, enjoy your peace before the inevitable trip to Mordor.
Rain is a good thing for Oz right now, how ever it brings with it such negative connotations that one cannot help but be how should i put it....down with the blues.
Erratic sleeping patterns and lost emotions have been the guide for my self-destructive behavior these past few days. My desire to eat is replaced with this absurd sense of loneliness.
Perhaps Dom was right, there is no such thing as love, just degrees of attractiveness.
How i wish this stupid feeling to leave, it is cramping my style of...me.
I need a break from studying, from home, just from everything.

emily;

WHY THE HELL DID I CUT MY HAIR? Gosh, I am such an idiot.
I went to this Viet hairdresser in Bankstown today (thanks to Khu for the lift) and asked for a trim. Approximately 15mins later, my hair has been butchered 8cm shorter to what it used to be. To make matters worse, I only just got it straightened for $90 about a month and a half ago ... and now it's like .. wavy again! OMG WHY WHY WHY. Mother is going to kill me. She's going to say "I told you so" and "what a waste of your money" and "your hair takes forever to grow, how could you?".
Ah, I am so goddamn cut about an event which is completely superficial and materialistic. But I can't help it. My hair was started to get long for the first time in my life.
As kelvin would say, "but you're supposed to have short hair, you're a boy!".

*sighs*

p.s. don't brood too much USYD - I heard it was one hell of a game.

jimmi;

I've had the weirdest dream just then.
The first part is that my family has traveled to some Asian country, i think Thailand.
Anyways something happened and we are forced to walk over some line above this red/brown water. Which i assume to be a shit creek.
Anyways we start crossing it and then all of a sudden the guy making us cross it snaps the line and we all fall into the river.

Now when im first in the river im like oh shit my Nudies! Then im like oh no my phone.
So now both items are ruined, we continue to wade to the village. I see heaps of children crowding round houses and i think the were playing games and people were watching.

I wander off and i find this very thin but 5 story purple house.
I go in and i find out my friend Van Damn is inside and it is his parents house.
First im like wtf but then i meet all my friends from the shire. I see Jack, Hutt, Cass, Jenna, Scott, Rhys, Emma and more people that i cant remember and some randoms and they all give me hugs?
So i walk up the stairs to find a shower and i find one. I go inside take off my shit smelling clothes and open the door to the shower and i find some random girl there. I, stark naked, ask her to leave but she wont so i go in and have a shower while shes still inside. Anyways next thing i know shes disappeared and Van Damn comes in with a goat?

This is when i wake up and i think of what a fucking crazy dream this was.

jimmi;

I am home at last, past few days have been quite hectic.
Spent Monday and Tuesday at some stupid pre hsc trial thing.
Maths was possibly the hardest test i have ever done.
At first glance i knew i wasn't going to put in my massive effort.
So i did what anyone would do i fudged it =)
Haha, Mr.Buu was heaps funny that day. He kept on telling us to take it easy and interrupted us every half hour to tell us something "important".
I felt sorry for the people who don't get to appreciate his awesomeness.
He "showered" us free kfc! haha such an awesome dude.

ON the train home we were unfortunate enough to share a carriage with 3 country girls, fucking most annoying girls ever.
They are like you immature kids who think they are king shit, just fatter and uglier and possibly stupider.
They kept on saying "Are you a wansta?" to each other and i just wanted to say "NO YOUR FAT"

Anyways on the second day we had chem, i was so drained from last time all the questions were a blur to me. One of the questions asked me to draw a diagram of a rechargeable battery, i didn't know what it looked like so i drew an elephant. The head guy wasn't too pleased.

Now today is Wednesday and i am home. How dreary it is. I am contemplating my suppose incompleteness. Why do i feel this strongly for a person who may never feel the same way back. This conundrum i am in. Waiting for this HSC to end so i can finally get the answers i want and desperately need.

On a lighter note, clothes make me happy. Bought a new jacket the other day =)




emily;

Revolution of the decade - Tim has finally moved his computer OUT of my room, and into his own. What does this impose for me? Well, let's see ... no more yucky trance; no more random screams from counter strike and dota in the middle of the night; and most of all .. PRIVACY. About time, aye? :)

My internet is so dumb. It is so incredibly dumb that it will not go faster than the speed of dial-up and refuses to cure it's dumbness. I blame Telstra Bigpond. Those corporate kings are the cause behind the dumbness of my internet connection.

It feels so good to be on holidays :) - I don't care. I am going to at least have a little time for myself before buckling down for the trials.