WELCOME TO MY VENTING.

Sometimes, I just need a break. From the outside it may look like I'm doing nothing - I haven't got my licence, I haven't been studying properly for uni, I don't even go to class regularly ... but right now, I feel like I'm pushing myself to the absolute limit. I can't fucking take it. I feel like everything is inadequate. But nobody knows about the things going on inside my head.

I don't have enough time. Assignment after assignment. I need fucking room to inhale and exhale.

Yes, I have to work. Yes, I understand I need the money. Yes I understand this is nobody's fault and I am just incapable.

Incapale of coping, incapable of not whinging.

Argh why can't good things happen to good people. I want J to win the lotto so he can stop stressing about monetary problems all the time and fucking buy the things that make him happy. I want K to find someone that will love her and appreciate her for the things that make her special. I want my parents to be happy with me. I want work to be happy with me and not give me a fucking warning for getting 74% on mystery shop.

I want a thank you. I want a nice night where I can just be me.

Em


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WELCOME TO MY VENTING.

Sometimes, I just need a break. From the outside it may look like I'm doing nothing - I haven't got my licence, I haven't been studying properly for uni, I don't even go to class regularly ... but right now, I feel like I'm pushing myself to the absolute limit. I can't fucking take it. I feel like everything is inadequate. But nobody knows about the things going on inside my head.

I don't have enough time. Assignment after assignment. I need fucking room to inhale and exhale.

Yes, I have to work. Yes, I understand I need the money. Yes I understand this is nobody's fault and I am just incapable.

Incapale of coping, incapable of not whinging.

Argh why can't good things happen to good people. I want J to win the lotto so he can stop stressing about monetary problems all the time and fucking buy the things that make him happy. I want K to find someone that will love her and appreciate her for the things that make her special. I want my parents to be happy with me. I want work to be happy with me and not give me a fucking warning for getting 74% on mystery shop.

I want a thank you. I want a nice night where I can just be me.

Em