emily;

I think I have to come to terms with the fact that I will probably not have a life from now on. Every day I have uni, I'm studying in every break to keep up and to finish my assignments on time. Every day I'm not at uni, I'm working. Review decided to give me 4 shifts a week - which is GREAT, just ... I have to stop being such a kid and accept my responsibilities. No more late nights & long hour chats on the phone. No more procrastination and lazyness. I have to be on the ball every minute of every hour, of every day.

Dancekool rocks my socks. Especially when there's Daisy & Leslie beside me, bouncing to the music.

I think I've been overreacting. You referred to it as "just a hug", so obviously I was looking into things a little too much and letting my imagination go wild. But there's no doubt about it. You still tug on my heart strings. Always and in all ways.
I guess I was sort of half serious when I made that stupid threat of cutting you out of my life. Its a drastic measure, but maybe it's necessary. It could be the only option. But after a few days of not seeing you, I think I will be okay. Accepting the fact that nothing will ever change has taken me a while, but I can feel myself beginning to let go. But in order for me to do that completely, you have to let me let you go. It's unfair and it's frustrating. I have too much going in my life to dwell on this any longer.

So adios, salut, itte rasshai ...

I hope you have a happy & fulfilling life.


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emily;

I think I have to come to terms with the fact that I will probably not have a life from now on. Every day I have uni, I'm studying in every break to keep up and to finish my assignments on time. Every day I'm not at uni, I'm working. Review decided to give me 4 shifts a week - which is GREAT, just ... I have to stop being such a kid and accept my responsibilities. No more late nights & long hour chats on the phone. No more procrastination and lazyness. I have to be on the ball every minute of every hour, of every day.

Dancekool rocks my socks. Especially when there's Daisy & Leslie beside me, bouncing to the music.

I think I've been overreacting. You referred to it as "just a hug", so obviously I was looking into things a little too much and letting my imagination go wild. But there's no doubt about it. You still tug on my heart strings. Always and in all ways.
I guess I was sort of half serious when I made that stupid threat of cutting you out of my life. Its a drastic measure, but maybe it's necessary. It could be the only option. But after a few days of not seeing you, I think I will be okay. Accepting the fact that nothing will ever change has taken me a while, but I can feel myself beginning to let go. But in order for me to do that completely, you have to let me let you go. It's unfair and it's frustrating. I have too much going in my life to dwell on this any longer.

So adios, salut, itte rasshai ...

I hope you have a happy & fulfilling life.